Just Trust

Recently I've stepped into a much more social role on the weekends. With summer serve here we have all new volunteers every service each weekend. We've also combined our rooms putting K and 1st together.

Now as you step into the Kindergarten room on the weekend it seems to be busting at the seems, but I love seeing the community of being all together. As for my role, I'm filling in for the coaches and admins each service. I meet and greet the new volunteers and answer any questions they may have, I plug them in to which color team they'll be the small group leader to and I introduce them to any other volunteers they may be serving with during the hour. I also keep an eye out for safety, greet the kids as they come in, and answer any questions parents may have. All of that is covered under a coaches role. As an admin I make sure all the leaders have what they need and I count the name tags to see how many kids we have.

So far we've had two weekends of this new summer formatting and the first one went great. Being with kids and new volunteers energized me...and with that much going on during the weekend I was pretty much flying high on adrenaline. This past weekend was the same, but the adrenaline rush wore off during the last service. And when that rush was gone I could feel myself getting drained.

Being an introvert when things become far too social with very little down time I end up completely zapped. It's not just a feeling of being tired, but one of complete exhaustion paired with a persistent headache. It also comes with a strong desire just to be away from people and it's a struggle to even focus enough to talk to someone. Unfortunately I've found that this can last for a couple days before I feel completely back to normal.

After last weekend I ended up with this...well what I like to call a social hangover. As I tried to describe it to people they gently reminded me that the social pace I experienced last weekend is the normal of children's ministry. It didn't take long for the doubts to come again in my mind of 'am I really wired to do this?' For so long it's seemed that the only image I knew of children's ministry is one person leading...they may have a great team under them, but ultimately they are the ones at the top.

But in coming to Willow for the summer I've come to realize that there's more to children's ministry than that one position. I feel like I could work hard, try my best and force myself into a role that may ultimately drain me (maybe not right away, but eventually it would) or I can lean more into roles that are my sweet spot. Maybe it's not what I've pictured up until this point, but I'm gonna trust that my 'sweet spot' job does exist and that if I trust God and follow him he'll lead me to that place where my heart is beating with his and kid's lives will be impacted for his kingdom.

And so for now...I'm going to push the doubts aside and just trust. And when the fear creeps in I'll keep repeating 'Just trust'.

"For he shall have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord." Psalm 112:7